As I Am

Wow, two posts in one day. I'm busy haha XD. So I've decided to just use smileys in this blog because it's too hard for me to hold back, so prepare for a bunch of them!

Rachel and Jess got the letters I sent them today! Meg still hasn't gotten hers, I hope it gets to her!

Anyways, I guess I'll make the point of this post about... things about myself I think I should work on?

Like the fact that when people are telling me something, I'll then tell them something about myself that connects. When I do this, I do it to show that "hey, we're alike! we have something in common!" but people seem to take it as more of a "hey, let's talk about me! me, me, me!" which is really not what I mean!

I think this happens to a lot of people. Well, maybe not this exact scenario, but just things that they do that everyone seems to take the wrong way.

Another thing people seem to do is kind of block off a part of themselves until you get close to them, and then all of a sudden it's like BAM! The person you thought you knew is completely different. It's scary, y'know? I wish people would just be themselves. And there are all these excuses like "I was just brought up differently" blah blah blah. Well, if you were brought up differently then you ARE being yourself aren't you? So why are you making the excuse anyways?

When I say I wish people would be themselves, I'm not talking about how some people just aren't that open and aren't all out there, I'm talking about people who keep a fairly prominent part of themselves hidden for a really long time (even when that part of them isn't that bad!) or people who act like someone else just to be accepted.

If you act like someone else in order to be accepted, YOU WILL NEVER BE ACCEPTED! Instead, the person you're pretending to be accepted will be, and sometimes, even the fake you won't be liked. For some people, I guess this seems like it wouldn't be so bad. Well those are the people that need a serious priority check. Will someone else accepting you really make you happy? Even if they accept you, won't you think to yourself "Well I still don't like myself, but at least they do... oh wait, no they don't, they like the fake me." How can that be good enough for someone?

And then there's the topic of boys. Has anyone else ever realized that pretty much all girl drama is about a boy in some way, shape, or form? And let me tell you, a boy liking you makes you feel good for about a week, and then that wears off. Fast. That's when the worry comes in "Does he like me? Am I pretty enough? What if I'm a bad kisser? etc. etc." And then if you actually get into a relationship it's good for about a month and then the initial feeling wears off and it gets [u]hard[/u].

And one more thing. If you feel like you won't be happy until you have a boyfriend, it's actually the opposite. You won't have a boyfriend until you're happy. You can't be desperate either. Guys can sense that and they usually don't find it attractive. There's someone out there for everyone, but you have to love yourself before they'll love you.

That was just my little words for the wise of today XD I guess I should go do... something now ^^; Bye~

P.S. Has anyone else noticed that all of my blog titles seem to be song titles or parts of lyrics?