Dancing Through Life

*Edit* Unfortunately all the pictures were on my old phone which got stolen :(

Ok, so in keeping with my unintentional theme of making all my post titles song names, I chose "Dancing Through Life" Which is pushing it, because it only slightly has to do with the theme of this post.

I went to the mall with my friend Tati yesterday, and we ran out of money so we decided to go to Macy's and try on prom dresses!

Tati's too young to go to prom (little 8th grader, haha!) and I got invited by 3 people but I decided not to go (so pretty much, neither of us actually needed a dress) but we decided to do it for fun.

We started out just gathering dresses (is there any other way to start?) and Tati picked out about 3... I picked out about 10 (I'm a dressaholic ^^;) And then we tried them on (once again, is there any other way to try on dresses besides... trying them on?)

I don't have the pictures we took on my computer yet, but I'll upload them ASAP!

As I Am

Wow, two posts in one day. I'm busy haha XD. So I've decided to just use smileys in this blog because it's too hard for me to hold back, so prepare for a bunch of them!

Rachel and Jess got the letters I sent them today! Meg still hasn't gotten hers, I hope it gets to her!

Anyways, I guess I'll make the point of this post about... things about myself I think I should work on?

Like the fact that when people are telling me something, I'll then tell them something about myself that connects. When I do this, I do it to show that "hey, we're alike! we have something in common!" but people seem to take it as more of a "hey, let's talk about me! me, me, me!" which is really not what I mean!

I think this happens to a lot of people. Well, maybe not this exact scenario, but just things that they do that everyone seems to take the wrong way.

Another thing people seem to do is kind of block off a part of themselves until you get close to them, and then all of a sudden it's like BAM! The person you thought you knew is completely different. It's scary, y'know? I wish people would just be themselves. And there are all these excuses like "I was just brought up differently" blah blah blah. Well, if you were brought up differently then you ARE being yourself aren't you? So why are you making the excuse anyways?

When I say I wish people would be themselves, I'm not talking about how some people just aren't that open and aren't all out there, I'm talking about people who keep a fairly prominent part of themselves hidden for a really long time (even when that part of them isn't that bad!) or people who act like someone else just to be accepted.

If you act like someone else in order to be accepted, YOU WILL NEVER BE ACCEPTED! Instead, the person you're pretending to be accepted will be, and sometimes, even the fake you won't be liked. For some people, I guess this seems like it wouldn't be so bad. Well those are the people that need a serious priority check. Will someone else accepting you really make you happy? Even if they accept you, won't you think to yourself "Well I still don't like myself, but at least they do... oh wait, no they don't, they like the fake me." How can that be good enough for someone?

And then there's the topic of boys. Has anyone else ever realized that pretty much all girl drama is about a boy in some way, shape, or form? And let me tell you, a boy liking you makes you feel good for about a week, and then that wears off. Fast. That's when the worry comes in "Does he like me? Am I pretty enough? What if I'm a bad kisser? etc. etc." And then if you actually get into a relationship it's good for about a month and then the initial feeling wears off and it gets [u]hard[/u].

And one more thing. If you feel like you won't be happy until you have a boyfriend, it's actually the opposite. You won't have a boyfriend until you're happy. You can't be desperate either. Guys can sense that and they usually don't find it attractive. There's someone out there for everyone, but you have to love yourself before they'll love you.

That was just my little words for the wise of today XD I guess I should go do... something now ^^; Bye~

P.S. Has anyone else noticed that all of my blog titles seem to be song titles or parts of lyrics?

What is This Feeling So Sudden and New?

I hate it when you have no idea what emotion you're feeling, or the reason you're feeling it. All I know is right now, it's not the best feeling... And on top of the weird feeling, I have all these things that I want to do, but at the same time I really don't want to. It's like, I want to curl up into a little ball and sleep for the rest of my life, but I also don't.

There are certain things that kind of feel like a force feild around me, and although I know part of me wants to get rid of those things, another part of wants to keep them. It's like if I just get rid of them, I'll be out in the open and vulnerable. This isn't really the best analogy but it's the closest I can get to putting it in words ^^;

I don't know, maybe this is what depression feels like? I really don't think I'm depressed, but maybe I am?

And the worst part: I have NO idea what caused this.

Well, I do have some idea (I'm pretty sure I know the general cause) but I have no idea what the specific reason is. I don't even feel like talking, which is really weird for me.

I think I'll watch Kirarin Revolution. It's such a mindless and cute show! Then I'll listen to Evanescence when I'm falling asleep. It's weird how intense music like that makes me feel better when I'm sad while happy music makes me feel worse.

Or maybe I'll do some singing. That usually makes me feel better (not always though, depends on how cooperative my voice is being that day. Haha.)

(I am trying very hard right now not to fill this post with smileys, I usually use them A LOT XD Oh, look one slipped out ^^; ... and another one)

Everyone should also check out my youtube account! sagashiteXsearching.

Anyways, I suddenly feel a lot better. Not really sure why, but I'm not complaining! I have to go do homework now (suprise suprise) I'll post again soon!

Good Golly, Miss Molly!

Bonjour! Je m'appelle Molly et ceci est mon blog. (Hello! My name is Molly and this is my blog)

Thought I'd just start out with some French their, but my native language is English (I randomly use French and Japanese words, they just slip out sometimes. Haha!) Well, I've had this blog for about 2 years now, but I decided to give it a face lift and pretty much just start over, and to start starting over, I'm going to introduce myself!

Well, as I said before my name is Molly. I'm a fairly average 16 year old (though people have told me I'm mature for my age... I don't beleive them XD) who goes to an art school. I'm a theater major at my school, but I also love to sing. I actually am an actor/model (I have agents... ok that makes it sounds like I have body guards...) but I'm starting to rethink that career choice. At this very moment, I'm debating between many careers: Vet, Psychologist, Astronomer, Biologist, Chemist, Forensic Scientist (The list goes on!) Of course I'm still open to being an actor or a model, but my passion really lies in science (and singing, I'd rather sing than act ><)

On the other end of my interest spectrum, is my love for Japan. I'm into anime/manga and I also love the pop culture there. I love cosplaying too, it's fun and people take lots of pictures of you ^^ (I like pictures... usually) I'm trying to figure out how to put pictures in my posts... (It's not working D:)

Speaking of me not being able to figure something out, I'm actually really ditzy sometimes. I'm smart (get all A's, high IQ blah blah blah) but sometimes my common sense decides to run away and I say/do really ditzy things (I asked what a sink was once...) I'm also really gullible which I guess could mean I'm too trusting of people, but I'm not sure if that's really a bad thing all the time.

I love being on stage and performing, but I don't usually like watching other performances (I'm too dang critical of others because I'm an actor myself) I'm also really critical of myself, and I worry way too much (Why am I spilling out all my faults in a blog XD)

Well anyways, there's much, much more I could write about, but for the time being, I should really finish my homework... So I guess I should go. If anybody actually reads this, thanks XD Ciao!